This is a diary type thing.
My sugar addiction. I decided to work on that, and shopped so that I would avoid the sugar, and just get other types of food. It worked until the evening, when I dug out the leftovers of some sugar snacks in a cupboard. Ate it. Crashed a bit. Pondered over how bad the body feels afterwards.
Started over this morning.
Early morning with laundry today. Bumbled down to the supermarket around the corner with plastic water bottles in a bag and bumbled on past the recycle station, into the shop, realized I must look awful this morning (all pale and dark circles) and.... then noticed that I still had the water bottles with me. "DO'H!"..... Left the shopping cart, waddled out and put the water bottles in their place. Waddled back. Everything okay. ABSENTMINDED? Nahhh....
Walking back with groceries, I noticed how fast and anxious I was walking. Realized I was having a really anxious morning, even out of the apartment. Mom and me are still debating the washing and it made me very jittery, earlier today.
Pondered over how I really need to get a lot healthier. The more I like myself, the "stupider" it feels to treat myself badly.
Got the dishes out of the way and only need one more washing.
It has become very clear to me, that my confidence goes way up, when I stay in charge and do what I want to do, when I want to do it. I need to do that in more ways, than I am now.
I also have to pay the price of huge anxiety, but the thing is... I feel that way for the littlest things anyway. So I might as well do what I want and get scared, than be stuck and be scared.
nultygoestopartick
well done xxxx

When you are doing these things gently sing The Hucklebuck You will feel a lot better.